~ the deeply unfortunate doings of an ill fated life ~

我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着

Hey Hey Hey!
How have you guys been! I have been going back to school for song signing rehearsals but I’m enjoying every minute of it!

Good news! NTU WSC is the proud recipeint of the distinguished President’s Social Service Award 2008, in recognition of the efforts that our forebears have contributed to the community in Singapore. Check out the 2nd page of the Home setion of the Straits Times 28th November to read about the achievement!

Listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fuNqDBstipU

I’ve been meaning to blog about you. About your sudden re-appearance in my life. If i didn’t blog about it at all, it will just show that you’re not important to me at all. That isn’t the case but i suddenly i found myself having a lot to say about you, yet nothing to say at the same thing. Maybe its because it doesn’t matter what i have to say now. I’ve tried and I’m tired. (look! rearrangement of the letters r and i will give you ‘tried’ and ‘tired’. maybe tried=tired. haha!)

Everyone has a different set of values inside them and when faced with a two-choose-one dilemma, they will use this set of values to make their decision, who gets priority and who gets left behind. You have made your decision and it isn’t me. Actually this incident is only the tip of the iceburg. I was thinking back and I realised that to you, I have never been at 1st place. Time and time again, I’m always the one that got left behind in all your decisions. I was the one that could be ignored, I was the one that could be put off, and so on. Because I didn’t matter. Actually, everything is already very obvious right from the start. I was blind to have not seen it. I was silly not to have realised it earlier. You don’t have to feel bad about anything. What you did just shows what you feel inside. We are human afterall. We feel differently towards different people. I don’t deny that I treat some people better than others too. But at the end of the day, everybody deserves to be with someone that puts them at 1st place.

Eh that’s the main gist of what i wanted to say. Whatever it is, at least i know that i have tried my best, so there’s nothing to be upset about.

My exams have ended since Monday! Yay! So what have I been up to all these while?

I have:

- Meeting up with friends

- Shopping! Whee! Just placed an order for The Three Musketeers in french! Its my favourite! It will be arriving in 2 weeks’ time. I was shopping at Kino that day i found out that they have a french section! Lovely. Will be getting some french classics now that they are having 20% discount.

- Been planning my timetable for next sem (so far i’m planning to take French Level 2 and Principals of Econs as my electives this sem.) Jean has just replied me with the time slots that he will be teaching so most likely I will choose that since I’m familiar with his teaching style already. )

- Checked out the Clay Workshop studio with fellow Farrago mates and had a chat with the person-in-charge. He was really inspiring!

Basically my cca Regular Service Project Hearing Impaired, RSPHI in short, has two yearly projects. One is our regular service project where we will have interactions with the deaf every week. Last year the seniors organised a photography workshop. Next year, we would either be continuing with our photography workshop or we will be having English lessons where we will be teaching them how to write resumes and stuff that will help them get jobs.

The other will be our yearly one-off event. Last year the seniors organised a food trail for the deaf and net year we will be having a clay making workshop where the participants will learn to make mugs. Initially even we ourselves felt that its just a recreational activity for the Hearing Impaired but the person-in-charge made us see that it would mean so much more to them. Because of their disabilities in hearing, their world is very silent. Even if we don’t talk, our world would never be as silent as theirs’. It would be very interesting to see what they can create with clay. How would they use clay to represent their world.

Even though it is just a one-off event, I think its just as meaningful and impactful as the other long-service projects. If you think that it’s just a recreational activity so there would be no sustainability or long term impact then you’re wrong. The reason why you think that way is because you are only seeing things from your own perspective. To you, a clay making workshop is like child’s play. But if you can learn to see things from other people’s perspectives and at a deeper level, you will gain a lot more. I remember that you gave me this advice before and I’m grateful to you for that and i think you should remember that as well. I’m perfectly fine that you can’t help, but i think you shouldn’t belittle our project.

Though we met our first little setback, we won’t give up. We will do whatever it takes to make it work!

Exactly at 3.30 pm on Monday. I will be free, free, FREE!!! Eating Sakae buffet with Yanjia after that. Too bad Qingyi can’t join us. But that’s ok, the 3 of us will go together next time.

Ok. Back to the books now.

I changed my Facebook status from ‘married’ to ’single’. I have not been attached all this while. It was just that I was recovering from a heartbreak these few months so I was single but unavailable. There was no such option so i just put it as ‘married’. Now, I have fully recovered. So its back to singlehood.

Still sick.

Done with Architecture and Chi Lit paper yesterday! Chi Lit was ok though i doubt i will score. Architecture suckssss! Having two papers on the same day was terrible.

I’m only left with another Chi Lit paper on Monday and then I’ll be free! Whoopee! But still have WSC stuff to do. More than half of my december holidays will be taken up by song signing rehearsals and the actual performance itself. We will be performing at a few shopping centres a few days before Xmas.

Listening to : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpRFeJEG6_o

I heard this song when i was very young and I completely forgotten about it. Then that day, I walked past this stop that has playing this song on the radio and i stopped to listen. Made me feel like dancing. Listen to it.

Bee Gees - How Deep Is Your Love

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

Chorus:
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
Youre the light in my deepest darkest hour
Youre my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show

Chorus
Repeat and fade

Thought I’ll just come out and reassure everyone that i’m still alive. Exams have started and I’m down with a sore throat, dry cough and blocked nose. Feel much better already. I had my French and Intro to Chinese Language a few days ago. Both weren’t very easy. Have to study harder for the rest of my papers now.

I feel strange not having french lessons to go for now! I need french in my life. Haha. Might be taking french level 2 if i can do well enough for the 1st french exam. =S  Wish me luck!

Obama’s victory speech! Didn’t watch it, didn’t read it butI’m sure it must be touching. And it sure is a victorious moment for America.

My Craft of Writing teacher actually went through part of it. Too bad we didn’t have time to complete. There are a lot of sentence patterns in his speech!

Periodic Sentence Pattern:

If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible; who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time; who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

Serial construction for the next few paragraphs:

It’s the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen; by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the very first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different; that their voice could be that difference.

It’s the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Latino, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled – Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been a collection of Red States and Blue States: we are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It’s the answer that led those who have been told for so long by so many to be cynical, and fearful, and doubtful of what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.

Anyway, I doubt anyone is interested in sentence patterns. So why am i blogging about Obama? Because I just heard a song which reminds me of something he said.I was watching the news one day, they were reported on his speeches and he introduced his wife Michelle as “my best friend and the love of my life”. Awwww. The love of my life part is easy but how many people can say that their other half is their best friend (and to mean it of course). So far out of the numeral couples that I know, only one or two made me feel that they are best friends. Of course its not to say that if your partner isn’t your best friend, you shouldn’t be together. Its just icing on the cake.
The song that reminded me of Obama:

Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat : Lucky

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tL812lRUsc8

Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I’m trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music, feel the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday